Sunday, February 8, 2009

Starting to feel some pain...

Definitely not writing this to complain about anything. All in all, I'm feeling fine. Can tell that my immune system is going down a bit (as is everyone else in Calgary right now with the winter / chinooks :)

Not sure whether it's the VP-16 or the Avastin, or both. Feeling some upper chest and neck pain. Almost like I pushed it too hard at the gym doing a chest and upper shoulder work out. Wish that was the reason.

Still having wacky sleeping patterns. Slept in until 4:45 yesterday morning but was up at 2:45 this morning. Can't complain. Trying to hit the sack by 9:00 every night so I'm still getting some decent sleep. Flashbacks of the old days when I used to lay down at 9:00 on a Friday night to have a cat nap so I could party until 3:00 am that night. Complete opposite now!

I'm really focusing at least half hour a day doing meditation. It truly is a great thing to do. Stepping out of "reality" for a moment is so good for you. Trying to slow your thoughts down.....EXTREMELY HARD!!!! I've heard that our brains will have an average of 60,000 thoughts per person per day. PER PERSON PER DAY! To ask it to mellow out for even 2 minutes? There in lies the definition of extremely hard.

I hope that everyone is having a great weekend! Hard to believe that January is already gone.

1 comment:

Louise and David said...

You are up early, Ryan! Those "wacky sleeping patterns" can play havoc with the worst of the 60,000 thoughts that run through a person's brain in the wee small hours of the morning. (My sister's husband tells her that she "gets behind enemy lines" at such times.)

I am sorry to hear about your first signs of upper chest and neck pain. We are still hoping that you will be spared many of the minor and all of the major side effects of the drugs that you are taking right now.

Good luck with your daily practice of meditation. "Stilling the mind" is a tough discipline to master but it is an extremely beneficial "inactivity", even in its beginning stages.

We ARE having a good weekend here, thanks, Ryan. David has played two rounds of golf in as many days and we are already seeing floral signs of spring on our daily walks around St. Andrews.

Sincere well-wishes,
Louise and David